Welcome to: just a splash

otherwise known as my brain

I’m currently writing from the lobby of Southhall Inn in Franklin, TN just outside of Nashville, where I’ve come for a girls’ weekend with two of my best friends. It’s absolutely gorgeous and I feel lucky. We’ve “hiked”, gone to the spa, eaten well, and laughed while watching “With Love, Megan” in our jammies. (Ps. The rooms are large. You CAN totally share a room with girlfriends and still feel like you’re 35, not 24).

It’s been the best weekend.

Walking on the grounds.

It’s also been emotional and weird. On Friday, we landed at 9:30 am and I called my manager per her request via text while I was in the air. “So sorry to text you on your day off, but I need to chat with you this am. It should only take 10 minutes.” (Side note: my manager is the best, she didn’t know I was on a plane headed on a spa vacation with friends!)

I knew what was coming: I was going to be laid off. It wasn’t personal, it was just what was needed for the business.

And so, we landed and I found a quiet spot in baggage claim en route to the Uber pickup line. “I’m so sorry,” Nicole said when I called her, “but I don’t have good news.”

I cried, even though I had seen it coming. Even though I’ve been feeling my own desire for change for a while now. (More on that at a later date…)

Change is hard, but it is also necessary, and freeing, and exciting. I think when we become adults and do adult things (get married, buy a house, have kids), change and what we dream of can be especially scary. My inner dialogue can look like this if I let it: “I have two kids, a mortgage, and a car payment in a bizarre-o uncertain world, who cares what I want! I have responsibilities!”

But the truth is, life is hopefully long, and at the same time, we never know what the next day will bring. Why not enjoy it and pursue things that bring us joy and a feeling of purpose and satisfaction?

It’s never too late for change. It’s never too late to try something new.

So! Here we are. I’ve always loved writing (perhaps in a future post I’ll copy/paste one of my childhood “family newsletters,” which I can assure you is incredibly cringe) and now I have some extra time on my hands. I’ve felt a creative, energetic shift coming for a few months now and Substack is my current favorite corner of the internet. I hope this will be a fun, creative outlet for me as I figure out my next move.

This newsletter is just a splash. No set POV right now. Just a sample of what’s in my brain at any given time. I plan to share musings, recs/links, and tidbits of my life while trying to figure everything out like the rest of us!

I’ve heard to start a Substack, you just need to hit publish. So, branding and such will come. But in the meantime, thanks for being here :)

And thanks to these gals for encouraging me.